Today

My life...who would have know that it would change like this?! My best friend, my husband, the father of my children is and has been sleeping on the couch...like it's his bedroom, and honestly it looks like he is completely okay with that.
He doesn't understand why I can't "Just get over it..."
Well here's an idea bud, you took my life, shook it like a holy hell storm, and then dumped it upside down and said hey now you can clean up the mess.
Everything I thought was mine, everything I thought was my life, was nothing but a sham and a lie...so forgive me if I can't just "get over it."

The ship has sailed

I have made up my mind. I deserve a thousand times better and one day I will get that. Until that day I wait, patiently. I have my boys who give me a reason everyday to wake with a smile and push through my day. I only cry because he will miss out on their lives. E's first steps, and N's great days at school. He will miss out on family pizza night and trips to the zoo. He thought he could have his cake and eat it too. But you can't have a girlfriend, a pregnant one and a life at home with a wife and two little boys. As I type this I have been packing his belongings all morning. He is set to move out tomorrow. To where he goes I don't know.