Forever changed

Now he wants to work it out. Now that he knows I have had too much and he has pushed me too far. He wants me back. He still talks to her daily.
But I will make it, I have great boys, and a great job. The best of friends and a rocking education program going on.

I will make it because I have to make it. I have to prove to him that he doesn't deserve me and that I deserve the world.

I am certain of a few things

I am me, and I love me...that will never change.
I have my boys N & E who I love unconditionally and in return love me unconditionally
I have a great job, and I love to dance.

Those are the things I know for sure..

All the others, my marriage, my life as of now...I am unsure of.
I feel as if he doesn't want to be with me, but that he isn't man enough to say it. So he waits for me to say it.

I feel like I'm in the middle of a cyclone watching things spin out of control and watching everything with the exception of my boys fade away.

Off to the beach we go

We spent our Sunday at the beach, and boy did we have a good time. This is E's first summer and he is such a water baby

Ps this beautiful girl, is my BF who adores N & E.