I am certain of a few things

I am me, and I love me...that will never change.
I have my boys N & E who I love unconditionally and in return love me unconditionally
I have a great job, and I love to dance.

Those are the things I know for sure..

All the others, my marriage, my life as of now...I am unsure of.
I feel as if he doesn't want to be with me, but that he isn't man enough to say it. So he waits for me to say it.

I feel like I'm in the middle of a cyclone watching things spin out of control and watching everything with the exception of my boys fade away.